Bargaining with my brain
between what I want for myself and
Who I am right now
is driving me insane
Driving has never been my strong suit anyway

So, others drive me
up a wall, down the hallway
A way to cope is all
I need to fall asleep
burdened by my nightmares 
and dimly lit dreams
of something to appease me 

My emotions are high, and so am I
not on drugs just on the possibilities and
the overwhelming feeling
of feeling
nothing at all